I'm leaving July 10 and like the early handover, I totally do not feel prepared to go.  God's been doing things at home.  For example, my relationship with my mom has grown a lot.  I feel like we've really connected in a way that hasn't happened for years.  Yesterday, I couldn't go to sleep until four in the morning.  I read my old journals.  I came across this quote: "Grace is freeing me to no longer minimize, justify, or deny my losses, but to face them with integrity and grieve over them.  Coming out of denial about past losses has been critical to my healing process." Nancy Groom.  Grieving sucks, but it's necessary.

I was watching a romantic comedy "Til There Was You," which was more like a tragedy, but I realize that it's a short jump from believing in love to believing in a higher power.  God is love.